Slipping through my fingers…

This song did not leave an impression at all when I saw Mamma Mia- the musical in Singapore. In fact, I could not recall it being in the show even. I guess it did not have any significance then as my daughter was still in school and the time had not come yet for her to leave the nest. But when I watched the movie recently and another time with my daughter when she had come home for the holidays, it was a different story altogether. Let’s just say I went into an emotional overdrive…and reality does bite!  I can vividly remember the time when she was just a baby…

Baby Melissa

…and before we knew it, it was time for her to go to kindergarten…

Schoolbag in hand
She leaves home every morning
Waving goodbye
With an absent-minded smile

Mel in kindy

and then came the years in primary school…

I watch her go
With a surge of that well-known sadness
And I have to sit down for a while

Melissa in primary school

…and after that, secondary school…

Do I really see what’s in her mind
Each time I think I’m close to knowing
She keeps on growing
Slipping through my fingers all the time

Mel in secondary school

Along the way, there were the awards and prizes…

Slipping through my fingers
I try to capture every minute
The feeling in it
Slipping through my fingers all the time

Mel and awards

Mel and prizes

Through the years, we were together most of the time going to school in the morning and coming back together, stopping at places to eat her favourite food or I would cook for her things that she loved to eat…

Sleep in our eyes
Her and me at the breakfast table
Barely awake
I let precious time go by

STP's breakfast for Mel

and we travelled here and there and had fun. She has a lot of cousins…

There’s that odd melancholy feeling
And a sense of guilt I can’t deny
What happened to the wonderful adventures
The places I had planned to go
Well, some of that we did
But most we didn’t
And why I just don’t know…

Mel and cousins

…but they are all in other towns so most of the time, she was stuck with her old daddy for company…

Mel and Daddy

…and then the time came when she had to leave home to pursue her further studies…

The feeling that I’m losing her forever
And without really entering her world
I’m glad whenever I can share her laughter
That funny little girl

Mel at IPSAH, Sg Petani, Kedah

My little baby girl has grown up now and gone out into the world on her own but one thing’s for sure, she will always be daddy’s little girl…

Sometimes I wish
That I could freeze the picture
And save it from the funny tricks of time
Slipping through my fingers…

“As for man, his days are as grass: as a flower of the field, so he flourisheth. For the wind passeth over it, and it is gone; and the place thereof shall know it no more. But the mercy of the LORD is from everlasting to everlasting upon them that fear Him, and His righteousness unto children’s children.”  (Psalm 103:15-17)

Author: suituapui

Ancient relic but very young at heart. Enjoys food and cooking...and travelling and being with friends.

23 thoughts on “Slipping through my fingers…”

  1. Aiya….so early in the morning already make me want to cry. I think almost all of us have gone thru that. Waiting for the day they come back and dont mind being a major shareholder in the airlines! Sher back on the 10 Dec and Bdq back for Christmas.

    That’s part of life, I guess. We just do the best we can and when the time comes, we’ll just have to let go. At least urs is one direct flight whereas mine will have to go by taxi to take a flight, transit one or two places – the journey home is so tedious and she does not take too kindly to travelling, unlike the old man!

  2. its been confrimed…you’ve been diagnosed with the “empty nest syndrome”… can imagine the look of despair and sadness on ur face when she has to leave… just like my mummy…but parents gotta deal with it.. sooner or later kids are just gonna marry.. have their own kids..and……decide which old folks home u go to…HAHAHAH..umm…i guess thats not funny at all..but yeah..i think ill understand when ive become a dad someday 😛

    Humph! Must pass you my “Money is not enough 2” vcd to watch when you come back! Ur mum has done a great job rasing so many of u after ur dad’s untimely demise. She still has Gab around but when he leaves, I’m sure it will be heartbreaking for her…and this useless son is talking about sending parents to old folks’ home. Tsk! Tsk! 😀

  3. I know just too well what u r going thru STP! Wait till she has boyfriend! Today my eldest daughter treated us all out for yum cha with her bf too. We used to do things together,coffee,shopping,holidays,now she prefers to be with her bf,my 2nd daughter (still dad’s little gal) caught up with school projects so now left my youngest one(I consider him mum’s boy but he do not like to be label as one!Too gay,he told me!) to pamper!Only shopping he go is if he gets to hang around bookshops or music/EBGames stores! Sob!Sob!So it is a good thing my old man n I still enjoy each other’s company!So now I drag him everywhere,movies,coffee,shopping,travelling! Kesian him!LOL!Well!This is the circle of life!We had to move forward with time!Still m not empty nester yet,but I can see them all slowly becoming more independent!Sigh! Good n bad I suppose,sad to let go but good they can be self-reliant!

    Your kids are still staying with you lah! When all of them are gone leaving you and your Simon Le Bon behind, then only you will feel it. Ya, must let go bit by bit so they will be able to fend for themselves when the time comes. You can’t be around them all the time, that’s what I always tell my wife…unless she wants to give up her job and follow her daughter wherever she goes to wait on her hand and foot, and of course, she doesn’t want to do that!

  4. Ohhh.. I really feel touched from this entry. First when I read the title I know its from Mamma Mia! as I also really addicted in this movie. But am not feel anything when I watched the scene as I am still single and not really close with my parents, but when I read your entry, I can feel how a father emotion. Hey not all dad can write like this tau.

    Good in cooks+ a loving dad=a great guy!!

    Thanks for the compliment. I’d like to think that I’ve given my best, can’t ask for more. Typical Asian parents are not expressive of their affection and most dads just leave things to the mums…

  5. It’s x just parents who miss d gud ol’days..Sumtimes we children wish we cud freeze time too.Sumtimes i wish i was like Peter Pan,no nd to grow up,no nd to worry abt grown-up stuff bt juz go thru life juz living it to d fullest each day like a child..Its ironic that when we were young we couldnt wait to grow up but aft we do we wished we could turn back time..Thats human 4 u..I’m scared to thnk what hpns at d end of ths yr..Sobs!

    You’re right there. My girl’s always very sad when she has to leave and go back to college. Hey! It’s already the end of the year. What’s going to happen? Getting married? Well, if you are, congrats and lots of luck and good wishes.

  6. reading this, now i may have an inkling of why my dad has been so ridiculously protective of me up to now. and. i’m actually feeling very miserable about it.

    It’s the paternal instinct…and wanting the best for their child. Cherish and enjoy it. Btw, been a long time since you dropped by. Welcome back! Hope you’re doing fine over there.

  7. Yes, we all have to go through the “empty nest syndrome”. But, take it this way, with children all grown up, we move on to the next – having more time to contribute to the society!

    U’ll have half an empty nest soon… Do social work? I’m basically very lazy. People in the church keep pestering, but have to make all kinds of excuses. For one thing, I don’t like dressing up, shirt and tie…and when I join them, I’ll have to wear those – long sleeves some more. When I was teaching, I simply refused. Said that if they insisted, I would resign!!! LOL!!!

  8. This is such a sad post. I understand your feeling exactly. I hope she will coming back to you soon after graduation and she will make your proud with the flying colors she got end of the day. She is lucky to have a great daddy like you for sure!

    Not really sad but gratifying as I feel I’ve done all I can to fulfil my duty as a parent. No, I will not insist that she comes back as it’s her life and she should live it the way she wants, no obligation whatsoever.

  9. Dear Dear Dear
    This daddy is definitely a five star parent.
    You are showing your soft side clearly.

    Good for you!! We need more dads like you around.

    Thank you, thank you. I feel the traditional image of the father as an authoritarian, the bread winner of the family is obsolete. With love, affection and commitment, you can’t go wrong (as opposed to spoiling the child rotten).

  10. uhh.. actually i was just kiddin abt the last part..hahah :p

    I know…but I just have to bring it up…to make sure you do not forget all ur mum had to go thru’ for you! For one thing, she is blessed…all the children so smart and capable.😉

  11. sob sob. u make me feel so down today.

    You too eh? Two left on their own at home…That’s life, I guess!Did you click the link to watch the video of the song? Then you will sob a lot more! LOL!!!

  12. Oooi!!!! Apa lah! Lucky for me, my girl is number two, and I think we’re gonna be stuck on each other, for quite a while. 😀 As for the son, he’s already growing wings, and dreams of taking off, ready or not. Sometimes we just have to let them fall, and learn. Sigh!

    Hehehehehe!!! You’ll let him fall? LOL!!!

  13. Yes, have to. His father has a tendency to build safety nets everywhere though!

    My missus will do everything for my girl which is bad as she does not get to learn to do anything. But she’s learning and she’ll be fine… As they say, necessity is the greatest teacher.

  14. *waits for lindy sister’s comment*

    Lindy sister does not comment in blogs…but she said she read the post and halfway it became very blur. I guess that meant she was crying. And she said I’m very cruel…as she still rindu. Poor thing…and the anak having a ball of a time in Penang! Hahahahahaha!!!

  15. Aiyyooohhhhhh….. you’re making my eyes goes watery with your entry la… 😦 But, you’re right, children grow up very fast, in no time at all, they are in college and married… my dad must have felt the same way you do for me and my sis.

    You’re not the only one. At least, you have ur sis. My girl’s the only child…so she was stuck with me all the time and we grew very close to each other.

  16. Ehem.. your daughter is still very much available, right? 😛

    You scanned all the photos eh? So she didn’t wear specs until lately?

    Dunno…such things, usually the parents are the last to know! LOL!!! No scanner lah! Use hp to snap… She started wearing specs in primary school after the mum bought her a computer and she got hooked on the games!!! We only realised it when we drove past Pejabat Polis…and she said that was the Pejabat Pos! LOL!!

  17. I guess you never ask 😛 HAHAHAHAHAHA!

    Ah? She’s not colour blind as well no? 😀 Pejabat Pos and Pejabat Polis totally different colour.. hehe. Well, kids 😛

    Trust lah! I think I taught her well enough to know what’s right. Respect her privacy, no need to probe. When the time comes, she’ll tell me…I hope! LOL!!! Not colour blind – just shortsighted, 300-400 one side. I think me too…since I started blogging! LOL!!!

  18. Whoa! Now where did THAT come from? =_=”
    Thanks for the wishes and all but…not gonna be happening anytime soon. Nope. Hahaha.

    You said sumting about the end of the year mah…??? LOL!!!

  19. Aaaaaawwwww… that’s so sweet. I guess it’s every daddly’s nightmare watching their lil princess growing up into mature grown ladies. Every guy that she dates or is close to, will trigger the warning alarm in your head and no matter how good the boy may be, fathers would always find something that’s not right about him coz fathers would always feel that no boy/man is ever good enough for his daughter. But fathers gotta let go at some point… and just to make it clear to my daddy, Mel’s daddy, and all the daddies out there… even after we’ve grown up, discovered boys, date, and eventually marry… you will still and always be the #1 man in our lives… so chill and let go of the leash a lil, will ya! (wink)

    Not me lah! I realise I won’t be around forever so anyone who loves her and will take good care of her, I will be happy, regardless of colour or creed…or appearance. LOL!!!

  20. *tears in my eyes*…. i can imagine this is what i am going to walk thru when qiqi leaves me…u really make me cry la..*sob..sob*

    Sobs!!! Sobssss!!!! Heartwarming true and true, eh? 😉

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